Al-anon in training: The Spiritual Awakening!

Al-anon in training: The Spiritual Awakening!: "The topic of today's Al-anon was 'The Spiritual Awakening'. I always thought that my family is very healthy. After a..."

The Spiritual Awakening!

The topic of today's Al-anon was "The Spiritual Awakening".   I always thought that my family is very  healthy.  After all, I've received everything I needed, wanted  (love, support, happiness).  Then I married my husband, who is an alcoholic/addict.  Once my husband started his recovery, I ended up in the Al-anon group near my house.  Turns out, this group is for Adult Children of Alcoholics.  But why does everyone here speak my language?  Why do I relate to the shares?  The more I come back, the more I understand that my family is way off perfect.  My grandfather on the Father's side was an active addict, had tons of women, abused my father and rest of the family.  My grandfather on my Mom's side was an active gambler & alcoholic.   Alcoholism is a disease and we cannot hide from it.  My father doesn't drink daily, but he possesses all the alcoholic characteristics.  I remember wanting to get away from home after graduating high school.  I moved 1000 miles away to escape the family parties.   I could run, but I couldn't hide.  I would obsessively call my sisters and feel all the pain and embarrassment that I missed during the family gathering.   Today, I know that my husband shares this terrible disease with some of my other family members.  Today, I know that I was crazy way before "my husband made me crazy".  Today, I know there is G-d, because there are days when despite of it all I still feel happy.  Today, I know that I could truly enjoy and forgive my parents for being the way they are instead of constantly acting out around them. Today, I know that I could get support. Today, I have a Sponsor, who tells me that my husband's recovery is none of my business & taking care of me is what I need to be doing. Today, I know that everyone is a child of G-d.  And these are little steps to Spiritual Awakening.